To begin with, when I say “you”, I am not referring to one particular person, but a handful of human beings. Don’t assume anything.
I hate how people are so … two-sided. Not necessarily two-faced persay, but two.. sided. One minute they are supportive of you.. they’re a true blue friend and they want to talk to you. They actually take the time to listen to what you have to say and what you need to say. The next, they blow you off for someone else or something else. People change personalities every five minutes. Some people are one way one day, then the next day, they wake up and they are totally different people. It scares me. How can I trust someone who can’t stay true to one persona? One minute you’re trustworthy, the next you would tell anyone and everybody. Enlighten me?
Then there are the people who just seem to not understand or comprehend … me. Well, not necessarily me, but people who have anxiety disorders. I’m not using it as an excuse for anything, before anybody decides to throw that at me. It’s just the majority of you assume you understand when in complete honesty, you have no idea. Not one person understands how intensely scary it is, how your brain sits in a stand still of pure terror where you cannot speak, cannot move, cannot even comprehend how terrified you are. It doesn’t matter if YOU find it to be the easiest thing in the world… It’s different for me. Unlike most people, I am NOT self-diagnosed. I am not assuming that I have these disorders. It is on my permanent record school wise. It is on my health records. I was diagnosed at age five. I have taken medications for these problems. I have been to psychiatrists and I know what I’m talking about. It always aggrevates me when people assume that I’m “stupid” or “cowardly” because of it. It’s not like I’d choose to have these disorders if given the chance. They are genetic and run in my family. I was the unfortunate one to get the intense ones that had to actually be diagnosed.
For some of you who don’t know… I did not speak to anybody in school until grade four. We would have to do projects and I would not be able to do them without totally melting down emotionally and mentally. I had to have another kid presentate my work for me. For this reason my main psychiatrist and my doctor decided to prescribe me with Prozac(which eventually caused suicidal thoughts, etc.) so I was moved to Paxil. These drugs caused me to gain weight, but helped me overcome a signifigant amount of my fears over time. I also used the internet to get used to communicating with people who were not in my immediate family and to become adjusted to human communication. I didn’t even have friends until fifth grade, and even then nobody was old enough to really .. care to keep trying with me. I don’t have any problems with that, either.
It just aggrevates me so much when people self-diagnose themselves with these things when they haven’t been through 1/4 the hell I had to endure in my childhood to get to the point that I am now. It aggrevates me to no end when people downplay it, make it seem like it’s something i’m just “doing” to get attention. Newsflash, buddy. It’s not. If you want proof, I will get you a copy of my medical records or my school records.
Then there’s people who just want to be friends with me when the time is right for them. I cannot tell you how many times I’ve felt like nobody else was around me when I was in a room full of people. A lot of my best friends have moved on to other friends and I have as well in some ways… but it’s not easy to just deal with not being around some of the people I miss being able to talk to. It sucks. It’s kind of sad as well how many people I really love and I know would love to be around me and talk to me that live in other states. In all honesty, the majority of my “best” friends are from other states. I don’t even get to see them unless I call them or text them or Im them. /:
Also, I really hate how people think lowly of me or talk me down. It’s not just me they do it to, either. It’s me, Caity, and Lisa the majority of the time. People will talk us down (intentionally or not I am not aware). So what if we aren’t in Honors Math? So what if we don’t necessarily study as much as you or make better grades than you. There’s a difference between book smart and common sense smart. You won’t get ANYWHERE unless you know common sense. I can’t stand people who see it fit to label me second rate or make me feel second rate, fuck you, I’m not second rate. I am just as good as you are. I can’t stand people who are all holier than thou whatsoever. Biggest wastes of space I’ve ever seen. There are so many times when people make comments about something and make it seem like they have to dumb it down for us or scoff because we don’t have anything to do with a specific subject. It’s very frustrating and very annoying.
I just felt like ranting.
informing.
bitching.
Really, if you have a problem with anything said, I welcome you to inform me of such.
jacatttackk:jennlennon:heythereace: hippocrick:asdfmichelle:
Hi, my name is: Molly.
Never in my life have I been: outside of the United States.
The one person who can drive me nuts is: There’s plenty of people.
High school: JCHS.
When I’m nervous: I bite my nails.
The last song I listened to was: Crazy Loop (Ma ma ma) - Crazy Loop rofl.
If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: I don’t know actually. Caitlyn!?
My hair is: Black, Dark Brown…
When I was 5: I loved pikachu.
Last Christmas: I GAVE YOU MY HEART, THE VERY NEXT DAY, YOU GAVE IT AWAY
I should be..: sleeping.
When I look down I see: my legs.
The happiest recent event was: Kittle’s class
If I were a character on ‘Friends’ I’d be: I can’t remember any of them
By this time next year: I’ll be heading into 2011 aka my graduation year.
My current gripe is: PEOPLE.
I have a hard time understanding: Cheaters and People who believe they know virtually everything.
There’s this girl I know that: is capable of making me spazzy and hyper and truly happy everytime we’re around one another. She’s my caitykins.
You know I like you when: I stare at you all the time, trying not to make it totally obvious, and I post vague comments about you.
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: My mom.
Take my advice: You will never know everything.
The thing I want to buy: Star Trek Red Shirt so i can match my shoes with the shirt LOL.
If you visited the place I was born: You’d be in the middle of a pretty decent sized Midwestern town in Central Indiana.
I plan to visit: Gettysburg again.
If you spent the night at my house: you’d be bored out of your mind.
I’d stop my wedding if: I didn’t love the man I was marrying.
The world could do without: Judgmental hypocrites.
I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: do a speech or something of the sort in front of a group of human beings.
Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: I don’t know.
Most recent thing someone else bought me: Headband & wristband.
My favorite blonde is: Kaley Cuoco.
My favorite brunette is: Jim Parsons.
My favorite black hair is: wouldn’t that fall under brunette… er, Zachary Quinto.. if his hairs black. ):
My middle name is.. Lynn.
In the morning I: I want to fall back asleep and I hate everyone.
The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: UNICORNS LMFAO.
Once, at a bar: I saw and met All Time Low.
Last night I was: watching BBT.
There’s this guy I know who: should really get some common sense, ASAP.
If I was an animal I’d be: a feline.
A better name for me would be: I don’t really know..
Tomorrow I am: going to sleep in, more than likely.
Tonight I am: heading to bed.
My birthday is: March 16.
His facial expression here reminds me of a gold fish.
Westley: All right, where is the poison? The battle of wits has begun. It ends when you decide and we both drink, and find out who is right and who is dead.
Vizzini: But it’s so simple. All I have to do is divine from what I know of you. Are you the sort of man who would put the poison into his own goblet, or his enemy’s? Now, a clever man would put the poison into his own goblet, because he would know that only a great fool would reach for what he was given. I’m not a great fool, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of you. But you must have known I was not a great fool; you would have counted on it, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of me.
Westley: You’ve made your decision then?
Vizzini: Not remotely. Because iocane comes from Australia, as everyone knows. And Australia is entirely peopled with criminals. And criminals are used to having people not trust them, as you are not trusted by me. So I can clearly not choose the wine in front of you.
Westley: Truly, you have a dizzying intellect.
“Since the invention of the kiss there have been five kisses that were rated the most passionate, the most pure. This one left them all behind.”
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I need to stop not using this tumblr…. LOL
WIN
LOLOL EPIC WIN
dkfhadfha “fuck yeah I’m so good” CLASSIC
all it’s missing is
“WILSON, WHERE ARE YOU WILSON, WILSON COME HERE, WILSON I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR ME”
